Friends

I wish I had a friend sometimes, I don’t mean your everyday run of the mill friends. I mean a true “bosom friend”. Someone that gets me and I get them. Someone that I can laugh and have fun with and that I don’t have to be self-conscience around. Someone that I can be there for when everyone else has left them and someone that I can talk to when I need someone to listen. I mean the people in my family are my only friends and they have to like me. I really appreciate that I have my husband, my sisters, my mom and dad and even my mother and father in law. I just wish that I had a woman friend (outside of my family) in my town that I could hang out with. I have a couple “work friends” (one of which is also my sister) but I don’t call them or see them outside of work. There are women that I go to church with that I could maybe be friends with but I don’t know. I always just assume that everyone already has friends and they don’t want new ones. I’m not the type to call someone out of the blue to ask them to hang out or come over for dinner. I always feel like I would be putting them in an awkward position because they don’t really want to hang out with me but they would feel like they would have to say yes in order to not hurt my feelings.

Finding a friend is hard, it’s not like I could go to match.com and look at the friend personals. I feel so lonely sometimes when I see my sisters with their friends. I wish that I could have that connection with just one person. There are women that I am friends with online on a birthclub bulletin board but they don’t exactly live around the corner although I often wish that they did. I had a “bosom friend” as a child. Her name was Willow and we were Best friends, she “got” me. In Jr. High she left me behind for the popular crowd and I never found someone to replace her.

I hope it doesn’t sound like I’m having a pity party for myself, I’m not, I just want those of you out there that do have friends to appreciate them, not everyone has friends and you are lucky that you do!